Normally I like to keep things light and fun but I guess I can't really do that today. Its one of those days that makes it difficult to be happy and I think I'm going to just put it down (or out) here for cathartic reasons. If you would prefer the freebies, don't worry, they will be back. I don't like to be like this for long and hopefully I won't.
I'm so down because my wonderful life has been slowly fading away for the past couple of years and last night was just a real scary night. My DH lost his job on Wall Street a little over two years ago and we have been living off of our savings. He opened a business, a chocolate store, and we just can't seem to catch a break. Sales are not what we were hoping they would be and we are going deeper into debt than out of... sighhhhh.
Last night, DH was so depressed that it literally hurt my heart. If there is such a thing as an empath, I would be pretty close to it. Whatever someone else is feeling, is what I am feeling. I just wanted to hug him and hold him and cry but he just wants to stand there and stare at the wall.... its just one of those kinda days... well, years really.
I am not going to say that we are not blessed because we are very, very blessed! My DD is the absolute best thing in the whole wide world and we have each other and knock on wood our health.... we better have that since we don't have any insurance! (Thankfully DD does!)
OK,I'm not going to go on and on, its just not productive but I just had to get some of it out. Its just one of those days... sighhhh.
And for those of you who hung in there and read my heart thats out here on the web, I promise I'll be having a wonderful new Christmas alpha coming soon!
Big Hugs to all my friends!